I Smell Children

Well for some of us school has already started. Routines are becoming habits and its “balls to the wall” pretty much every second of every day. There really doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day. But that really isn’t the point is it. Let’s talk a little about how it feels being an educator and a mom. Although I am thankful for the ability to provide Henry some serious structure…AKA school and giving him his social time with his friends, but I am so nervous about what I can be exposing him to. I know I can’t be the only person out there that feels this way. This is the only political thing I will say…. I do believe that people should be able to choose whether or not to wear a mask, but I am concerned about those who are having to face this pandemic without any protection. That is all I will say about that.

I love my job. Even though I am not in the classroom, I can still have an impact on student learning and growth. Luckily, I am able to limit my time in contact with students, but it only takes one time. It is very difficult not to let fear take over and blowing my anxiety out of the park. I am not concern with myself, but for my kid who is facing this pandemic with nothing on his side. We are working on wearing a mask when we go places, but he is three and he isn’t a fan of having anything on his face. I know that we can not control others, and that is the part I am trying to let go off. How are you guys handling this? Is your anxiety out of control? Do you have something you do to help you cope? I am extremely interested to hear other ways to deal with this. I can assure you I really don’t want to attempt to work from home with a hyperactive three year old….not that I have that option…but I want to be able to control my emotions and keep my fear at bay. It makes it a little easier watching how much Henry is learning, and warms my hearts to see oh excited he is to play with his friends.

I know this is crazy, but just writing that down brought so much relief to me. I am still interested in your ways of coping, and I feel like I have had a small epiphany. Let me just say that I have these often, especially when something small cause a particular character trait of my to rear it’s ugly head. I am a control freak!!!! Shocking… I know. HAHAHA! I have to be able to take all the appropriate precautions and tell myself I am doing everything I can to keep everyone safe. We can’t remain hermits forever…or can we…hmmmmmmmmm. JUST KIDDING, this mom can’t take that! She need needs interaction and so does her son! Frankly, what will be is going to be. Letting go and focused on the things in my control! I will leave you with this quote to ponder.

“Worry doesn’t empty tomorrow of its sorrows, it empties today of it’s strengths” – Corrie Ten Boom

K. Marin

2 thoughts on “I Smell Children

  1. Very true. This virus has hit home for me personally and it’s mentally exhausting!

    You’re an amazing mom! I know you inspire others too. 🙂

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